Fabulous Flower-children Fairies (Whoa alliteration. didnt mean for that to happen, but hey! Thats cool :D)

 So for my amazing friend Micaelas birthday (Also known as Jasmine or Jaz), we went to her park and had a little photo shoot with these magical little fake flower crowns she made, and we all look like beautiful fairies. Photo cred goes to Susannah and Isaiah. Don't we look amazing? ;)

 

Shy forest fairies :o

 

 Oh, you know...just hanging in a tree, like us fairies always do.

 DERP

 dawwww you

 Ya know, if this were at sunset it would be so pretty <3

 Peeka boo!

 Don'tcha just love us?

 Cool girl walk

 I almost fell out of the tree...yeahhh...but it made a good picture!

I think this picture is my favorite of me...I love my hair ^_^

 

 

 

I love all of you very much and I hope you had a fabulous birthday, Jaz.

KISSES MWAH

 

 

      

My friends rock

 So. I think we all have those certain friends that, whenever we hang out, we do the craziest/randomest stuff. Like, for example, video taping ourselves eating chocolate cake with our faces(and nearly choking from laughter) or causing our throats to hurt from screaming, shouting, and laughing at eachother while playing a shooting game in Banjo Tooie. Or rescuing kittens from under a trash dump near Taco Bell by luring them out with a burrito. Or having an unplanned whipped cream fight. Or dancing to music while wearing false mustaches. Or laying across eachothers laps on the sofa while screaming the Doctor Who theme song. Or seeing how many people can fit in the closet of a mobile home. Or singing "This Little Light of Mine" at the top of your lungs.
You all know who you are.
Basically I'm just trying to say I fluffin' love my friends.
...That is all.

Social Anxeity?

So I found this picture on the internet, and it really got me thinking. I've always been shy. I  know, I know, Im not shy once you get to know me (not shy at ALL) but I can actually relate to every one of these. I am homeschooled, but I take classes at a Friday co-op. Theres only about 10 other people in my botany class, and I know every single one by name, and even if the answer is right infront of me, I panic when the teacher calls on me. So I always say I dont know. Thats one reason why I could never go to public school: getting called on in class and/or getting embarassed infront of everyone. Just the thought of it makes me wanna cover my face with my hands and curl into a ball and never come out. Im so scared I'll be embarassed. Thats another thing:embarrassment. I cant handle embarrassment. I just cant handle it. Im pretty sure it could be classified as a legit fear in my case. And I actually do stay awake at night sometimes, reliving my most embarrassing moments. And they do, to a degree, "haunt" me. Another reason I couldnt go to public school is just so many people! Like, I do like people, but that many people? I feel like Im being judged by everyone and Im soooo paraniod of making a fool of myself. Then theres the grocery store. It takes a lot of force and firmness for my mom to park outside the store and get me to go in a buy 1 or 2 things myself. Dont even get me started on phone calls. I cant even call my grandma, guys. My grandma. And my mom is always all "That is sad, Charity. You cant even call yoru grandma. That is sad." I know its sad. I try to stop being such a baby, I try to stop being so shy, but I just cant. I always thought it was just shyness, but maybe I actually do have social anxeity. Or at least a mild case. :/ I dont know.

I miss the country

 I'm sick of the city. 

I miss dancing in the rain and playing hide-and-seek outside in the dark nearly every night.

I miss mud all over my boots and jeans, dirt under my nails, leaves in my messy bun, and my cheeks flushed red from the cold. I miss running around in the woods, riding bikes, and climbing trees till my muscles ache. I miss roasting apples and marshmallows over a big bonfire and watching the orange sparks float up against the dark blue sky like fireflies. I miss being actually able to see the stars instead of them hiding behind buildings or being too dim because of the city lights. I miss being able to run and shout and dance without neighbors being able to see or hear.

I miss home

a dream of mine

   Those of you who know me really well know that I have a soft spot for animals and kids. Those ads on tv showing the starving kids in Africa and such? They kill me. Whenever I hear a story or see pictures about orphans and such around the world, it makes me sad. It kills me seeing children being starving, dirty, and unloved. One missionary chick who visited a church I went to for a bit told us about some children in some country, the Philippines I think. These children were abandoned, and they have never even been touched. In there whole lives, nobody has ever touched them, or if they have, it wasnt pure. They have never had human contact, never had anyone hug them and kiss them and brush the tears away and tell them they are loved. When the missionaries started ministering to them and hugging them and sitting them in thier laps, the kids started crying. After never being touched in thier whole lives, this much love was just overwhelming. They shouldn't have to live like that. I wanna do something about it. When I give money to charities and such to help them, even though I know it helps them, I dont feel like Im doing anything. I dont feel like I am really making a difference. I have to be there, I have to hold them in my arms and hug them and love on them and bless them with anything I can offer with my own hands. Then I feel like I am actually making an impact. SO. Ive had this dream of mine, for a while, something thats been on my heart that I wanna do. When Im older, I wanna buy a big old colonial mansion or farmhouse. Or any house, as long as its big and old (I love old things. They fascinate me. I dont know why.) Just buy a big old homey rustic mansion, with lots of land, something like this.

 

                                      I know, this one is abondoned, It just needs some love :)

A house like that, and just adopt a ton of kids and animals. Children of all ages and nationalties from all over the world. The broken, abandoned, unloved. And pets....cats, dogs, birds, and maybe a horse or two or three ;). And I'll just take care of them. Ill love them. I know, it would be chaos alot of the time. Haha if Im married by then, my husband will just have to deal with it! Cause this is what i really wanna do. This is whats been on my heart for a while. Thats all.

this may sound weird

    I like old graveyards. I know, I know...that sounds kinda weird. But I don't mean in a creepy way. Ive always loved old things, particularly houses and buildings. Old mansions, abandoned churches, stuff like that. They fascinate me. Same with graveyards.There's nothing to be afraid of. Okay, maybe at night. But not because of ghosts or anything, I mean, the peoples souls are already either in Heaven or Hell. Its just scary at night because most everything is scary at night, to me. I don't really like to be outside at night, at least not alone. But I like them during the day, I like to walk through them. To read the little poems or verses on them, to calculate the persons age based on the dates engraved on the weathered stone, to imagine what they might have looked like, what their life would have been like back then. It's one of those things that is a feeling I have but I cant put into words very well. They are just so full of memories. It feels like Im connecting with the past, in a way. And they make me feel sad, but a good kind of sadness. A deep sadness, a sadness of remembering. I cant describe it properly, but some of you may know what I mean. Yeah, Im an emotional person.

what we do on fridays

So on Friday after co-op me and some friends went to a park. And we took lots of pictures ^_^

                               We found a Christmas ornament in a stream.....O.o

 Us taking a little break from walking....for no reason really. The awesome dude is Joseph, the cool looking chic in black is Cassia, and the pretty one in green  is Tabitha. :)

      Im sorry Cassia, but my first thought when i see this is "Flower gleam and glow....."

                                              A really cool tree. That is all.

           This one is actually one of the best. Joseph and some cute little purple berries of some kind.

We found some lovely animal death, as Nathan called it. A bunch of little grey and white feathers from some bird scattered all over the place.(The feathers, not the bird.)

 

             Tabitha being fabulous. ;D (I dont know why this one is in black and white)

                               Berries and sun ^_^

                                Berries and shadow O.o

                                                        <3

       And finally, a bench dedicated to some dead person. As Cassia said "Why would you dedicate a bench to someone? its like 'Oh, you got a statue up in your memory? Well I got a bench. A BENCH. Yeah, thats right. People put their butts on it. Beat that sucka. SWAG.'"

   All in all a great day. So now,  since yesterday was somewhat busy, Im relaxing with a cup of mint tea, chocolate chip cookies, and the Mystery of Edwin Drood by Charles Dickens :)